Monday, August 4, 2014

6+6

I feel like I'm going crazy. Constantly battling hormonal issues and wanting to cry all the time. I get angry so easily. I'm in an anxiety bubble of "have I lost the baby?" 

Nothing I can do will fix this. I am so lost. :(

Friday, August 1, 2014

6+3

I have been so out of whack.  Nauseous, cranky and clumsy.  I have been having crazy dreams but sleeping really well.  I was thinking about how excited I am about this pregnancy.  It's the first one Patrick and I have actually seen a heartbeat.  What a beautiful little blip on the screen.  I can't stop seeing it.  I wish everyone who was rooting for us had seen it.

These past 3 days have been so long.  I thought I was 6+4 when I went to the doctor but they pushed me back 4 days making our due date March 24, 2015.  I cannot handle another loss so, little blip - you must be my sticky rainbow baby.  I cannot wait to hold you and shower you in kisses and cuddles.